Wow its been over a year since I posted last.. I'm still in this life... A little more happier.......... Michael an I went to a marriage concealer, it really helped we are both doing more in life. Still not rock hounding or Doing Wicca but getting coulser I think to my true self.

me

Still haven't figured out if I'm separate from my thoughts. I have 3 more weeks left and back to work.. Just feeling like life is passing by and I'm not doing very much IN IT....... Michael's has been a real ass and just annoying to be around. Wish I could walk out of myself and away from this life into who I really want to be.. My creative self, painting, star watching, Wicca practicing, rock hounding, music gathering, sea exploring.......... Just so much more...... what is stopping me???? the 2 children still at home .. My husband,,,, money. Money?????? Not sure

Passing the Summer away......... really haven't done much......... I've been in a deep depression, I'm looking out of myself and I'm not very impressed with what I see around me. I Epiphany, " If I am looking out at the self is that two people or one????" I'm I separate from my thought????

IF

IF
I want to take another look at the word (IF)
It can mean so many things like "If I only had, had not, did, did not, said, Not said, went, not went.
If only.........
If He...
If she.......
If they......
there are so many, and it always comes down to something else happening instead of what did.... I wonder though, has anyone inculding myself realy thought about.... IF things had turned out different would we be where we are now, the person we are now, have the children we have now...................

UNDERSTAND what we do NOW??????????????

Well the summer is apond us and here in havasu that means the tourist are here. Lots of people with nothing on and to much liquor. Hoping to send most of my time in the pool with a book. Not inside doing little porjects that NEED to be done. like fish redoing the doors to my bath room cabnets. scrubing tile and baseboards, you girls know the things we but off all year long.

"When we honestly ask which persons in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The Friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not-knowing, not-curing, not-healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness... makes it clear that whatever happens in the external world, being present to each other is what really matters.

this for the one who keeps walking with me on my broken glass

How I wish too be

Wish so much to be next to the sea at this time. It has be ages since I posted daily life keeps getting into my way to write, my soul needs some healing and to write and be touched by the sea is what this LADY is in need of.