If you give the devil a ride its just a matter of time before he will want to drive. I feel like someone is intotal control of my life right now and its not me. How out of control it all apears as I'm looking in. I'am sending my 16 year old daughter to stay with her Bio father because I can not control her. she lies and sneaks around( with a 23 year old guy) Runs away, I'm trying to start class at NAU for fall for my BA, my oldest who is truning 21 in september is making me a grandmother in November with a girl that is a total idiot, my 15 year old is a smartass in the making, my youngest is having trouble reading. Iam I just feeling sorry for myself. or is it more, I'm I dreading becomeing the Mother I once had. A mother who never saw the big picture who was more concered with herself, with drugs, booze,men,friends. Who didn't see that her husband had molested her daughter from the age of 2 till 12. Then said the molestation was a lie and I needed help.